FUCK...

I am hitting an all time low,I want to fucking cry at this point thinking of how everything is hitting me at once,I cope with so much that I should have known that this would happen,suicidal thoughts hit me again as I try to avoid tearing up. I am not me anymore and that is what kills me. I am never a part of anything around,I am always the one who has to tag with everyone,I can never have my own thing. People who realize how fucked up I am eventually leave,they all left exactly. I should have gotten used to solitary confinement from the start.....