Hopefully I trully am the keeper

I hope that past luggage is emptied out,I really do hope that I am the keeper to her heart simply because I do not want to be the fool who is trying to possess the heart of a lady whom who's heart has already been taken by another man. With that said,I hope that she sow the fullest kind of passion in every single way as I do for her,where I would remain with endless forms of poetry and love. Where every single moment because a million little things at once. I just want to truly be love and admired,for I do everything for her and only her <3

Death will take us to another star

FUCK...

I am hitting an all time low,I want to fucking cry at this point thinking of how everything is hitting me at once,I cope with so much that I should have known that this would happen,suicidal thoughts hit me again as I try to avoid tearing up. I am not me anymore and that is what kills me. I am never a part of anything around,I am always the one who has to tag with everyone,I can never have my own thing. People who realize how fucked up I am eventually leave,they all left exactly. I should have gotten used to solitary confinement from the start.....

Morte'

My obsession with death is slowly growing more and more each day as I study the anatomy of animals and their skeletal forms. It is all so beautiful,so natural,so breath taking how Death can keep the bravest in fear,yet the most humble in deep gratitude,for only death can make life worth so much more then it actually is

I am blessed with such heavenly love

Say I am sprung,and I could careless. I feel no more emptiness beneath my left chest <3

What is more beautiful than the simplicity in Life & Morte' ♥

My obsession with Death is merely at it's peak,I enjoy the thought of Death instead of fearing it.Death gives our life actual purpose and emphasis as well.Without Death,Life would be meaningless <3

Let a Lucky Cat show you the perceptions of both Vida y Morte',keep in mind he has 9 lives to do so ♥

HOLY JEEBUZ!! I AM IN LOVE

She's so gorgeous in every way,her smile,those lips,that luscious hair,her style,her giggle on the phone,her dorkish ways,such passion and grace,love and caring. It is funny to doubt something that seems rather impossible at first; however, I am happy that even though we are 100000000000000 miles away,our love has never ever been this close to the feel. Even today on Valentine's Day,we we're not together but yet still managed to show each other the love and appreciation for one another in the strongest form. I managed to get her a heart shaped Pizza simply because I know that she loves it so much .It will be a month tomorrow,I feel as if it is already a year!! I am madly in love with her,I know that I never want to settle for anyone else..EVER!!simply because I know that true love won't be anywhere but here.100000000 Deathstars explode in my stomach as I think of how much love we have. I want to marry her and let our babies be the cutest little booger gobblers around!I want to make her pizza and bake her lasagna naked in the kitchen as we watch STAR WARS in our living room,I want to buy her 10000 wigs if her hair falls off,I want to sleep naked with her,make sweet sweet love disregarding any objectives that might want to prevent that.I know I am young but I know that this is what I have been waiting for for so long.This is my soul mate,my love,my best friend,my everything......

February 7

Today I was able to do more of what makes me, ME!!! I finally got the energy to go out and get my priorities settled.I am going to receive my California ID in 15 days,which is way better than my passport for when I get pulled over.While waiting in line ,this lovely old lady shared an umbrella with me due to the harsh rain.We conversed about how horrible the DMV lines and wait are and then she left her way taking my hospitality and complete gratitude. I was also complemented on my plugs,the lady in the counter says that they look perfect on me.Afterwards I was able to stop by my friend Zeck's house and work on some pieces ,as well as fix my new deck.I hand painted it and made it resemble myself(will post a picture later). We then drove around the lovely city of Lawndale and Redondo to find skate spots.The harsh rain tried to ruin our session but we neglected it and let the sesh go on.Throughout the whole day I was able to realize how close my friends are becoming,I called zeck's mom "MOM" ,in a sense I felt sad saying that since I feel it replaced my own mother,however,I also felt comfortable thinking that she cares as if I were her son. As days pass by I feel as if I am loosing the muse and complete raw feeling that I once had in the beginning with my lovely girlfriend.I wished we could talk tonight but I understand that she is busy.Either way,I appreciate days like this,where I am completely independent and outgoing as I was before.I am more free from house regulations and am able to go out and live my life.Bump me some Ice Cube because today was a good day <3

Come to me...

I am now slowly but surely gaining the creativity that I once had,constant sketches and concepts are processing in my head once more,I am trying to gain inspiration from everything at once,let's hope this feeling stays.Simply because I can't bare to lose it again .

I now come to the realization,

I shall become the man that I once was,so much more full of life,so outgoing in more than anything that would simply benefit himself.I shall do everything,read again,paint on the daily,keep the top grades,create more,plan more,invest more, and set up my foundation with connections full of pure support. I shall become the man that I once was,not the weak one being used,but the strong man that now knows what he is capable of and knows what he deserves <33

Just another day,another thought

Just another peaceful day before I get in to work ,another day full of unconscious actions and thought. As long as I can get by,then of course I won’t mind. Seems that thinking twice is set aside for the first choice,why?well no one ever remains satisfied with the second choice. Little by little I begin to figure out the ways of being happy,yet there are those moments where I know I am lying.In the end I learned that to gain complete happiness,one must encounter the complete and utter bullshit that is life to later on realize that he had the opportunities to be happy all along. I don't make much sense but I could careless,why? because I am Sense-Less

Life as of now...

So far so much has happened and changed me.In every single possible way!!

People who I thought would stay have left,new people have come in to fill those voids.Past relationships are completely deleted,new relationships are completely embraced.Art from before is becoming more serious,it is becoming a life of my own.I have a job now and am able to do what I love to do which is paint and plan events. A past life of being to nice and being fucked over has become  a life of careless thoughts knowing that in the end I am content and happy not having to fear or remain disappointed by anyone.High school is over :) and now I just finished my first semester of College,I am getting straight As and Bs and am working on transfers .If I could sum everything up,which is tooo much to post on here,I would say that I am living a life of happiness,no regret,and pure bliss knowing that I am doing what I want to do :)

Life full of love and risks worth taking <3